The Emo Files: Following Your Dreams


Are You the King or Queen Of Your Own Life? (That’s Aslan, Not Mufasa)

I just watched a special on Reasonable Doubt, which was followed by the opening credits to the Kanye West–Driven special on HBO. I dvr’d the Kanye special, but now I’m inspired.

Let’s Philosophize.

I have a lot of friends that have pursued lofty goals. Some of those goals are for careers, for education, or for their social lives. I often wonder how many of them are actually doing what they want to do, and how many of them are doing something that they just settled on. I’m talking lawyers, lab techs, cops, teachers… The whole 9.

I ponder that because I wonder how many of them are doing what they wanted to do when they were 7 years old. Heck, I am. I’m a writer now. Granted, it’s just to my loyal readers here and to an army of lurkers on the MySpace, but it’s a start.

When I was in my early to mid teens I wanted to be an actor, but I settled on wanting to be a teacher because I figured teachers are close to celebrities anyway. Think about it, you all have teachers you’re stans of. You all have teachers you fucking hate. You have teachers that have impacted your lives. That’s the same thing as being an author, actor, or musician, right?

Um, No.

The fact is that I am a creator. I pride myself on being able to tell stories, be they my own or relaying others, to help create good feelings in others. Heck, even when I’m being an asshole I’m hoping I’ll be the asshole that inspires someone to get their shit together. I’ve always said that I’d be glad to play the role of “enemy” if it’d help someone turn their life around. G’on and be mad at Uncle The Hussein. I’ll just smile and nod and know that you’re fixing everything I called you out on at the same time you’re telling me how wrong I am.

So, my question to all of you guys: Commenters, Lurkers, Regs, Random-Passers-By.. Are you living your dream? Or did you just settle on something that can make you enough money to get those Henny shots at the bar, or pay the car note?

I mean, I’m Ghostriding The Unemployment right now. It’s not a bad gig so far. I get to sleep in, bond with my dog F.R.E.D., bullshit on, and oogle as much Exgirlfriend Porn as I can.

But! I would gladly go to work for someone right the F now as a songwriter. A script writer. A movie watcher. A guy who collects massive amounts of Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles action figures and makes them fight epic battles throughout my living room.

The fact is that I think the world kinda sucks right now. It’s not just rap, or tv, or silly parody sports movies (The Comebacks looks like utter crap), or what have you. At some point, the world just got really mean, and people are ending up being forced to pick a school, a career, a spouse, a house, a mouse, a louse, and big ol’ plot of dirt to spend Forever in.

I just wish that the world was still a place for dreamers and creators. I wish we weren’t being forced to live in a Best Buy/Olive Garden/24-Prison Break-American Idol world. I mean, it’s not all the Fox Network’s fault, but it just seems to me that there isn’t any room out there for dreaming anymore.

It’s like we’re just supposed to drive our SUVs home after stopping for some Applebees and then flip on the tv and zone out without laughing or learning or playing and having adventures.

I really, really wanna have an adventure.

I used to daydream about finding a secret passageway to end up like Mikey and the rest of The Goonies. I used to try to make the remote control fly into my hand by using the Force. When I got older I’d pretend I was playing basketball as the greats of the era. When I got still older, I actually did act, and that was a lot of fun. After that I got into (and I know I’m gonna pay for this admission) Backyard wrestling. We didn’t maim each other, we just brought the fuckin’ funny. After that my adventures were throwing parties and listening to classic Bad Boy records and playing beirut (beer pong) and hoping against hope that two girls would make out, or even better, a chick would totally make out with me. Still, after that, we invaded this bar on the nite they had karaoke. I met a million new friends, I did Hip-Hop Hooray, and we had a blast.

*sigh* Then I got a little older. Everyone I knew settled down. The adventures stopped. It’s like all of the sudden it’s all about bills and 10,000 family gatherings and shit like going home at 9:30p and “401k plans” replaced staying out late and letting the nite make you it’s bitch.

It’s funny, I bash the living fuck out of Byron Crawford because he’s a caricature, a joke. Sure, I was a Bol Stan at one point, but after a while, I got tired of his 3 or 4 different tricks. However, one day I was checking out his site and I clicked on a link to his Vox blog, and in his header [||], he had a quote that really hit me. I’m not sure if it’s a line to a song, or a movie, but here it is:

I’d drink enough of anything to make this world look new again.” (if someone knows what that’s from, shout me a holla and I’ll e-mail you a copy of Fall Out Boy’s Take This To Your Grave).

The fact is, loyal readers, is that the world is shrinking, and all of the magic and all of the fear in the world is evaporating. Magic is being replaced by the mundane, and fear is being replaced by Terror Warnings, Red states vs Blue states, and sarcastic, subversive tv shows preaching nihilism.

The fact is, my loyal readers, The Nothing is upon us, and we are in desperate need of a Bastian, an Atreyu, and even a Childlike Emperess. The Nothing is upon us, and there is only one way that I know how to fight back.

To fight The Nothing, you simply have to put on a crown, you lift up your sword, and do something.

We are all Kings and Queens of our own worlds, our own kingdoms. Fight for what is yours: Happiness, Surprises, Joy, Love, and Adventure.

I’m already on the battlefield.

–King RTH

PS- Any slick remarks regarding the “lift up your sword line” will be cheerfully deleted. This here is grown folks talk.


22 Responses to “The Emo Files: Following Your Dreams”

  1. Fuxy Gillespie Says:

    Lovely Post Rey. I get what you mean but its the reality of it that “WE HAVE TO GROW UP” . I see it in myself , the same endearing childish humor and roll of my back attitude that attracts a girl to me is ultimately the reason they leave me or I go away. I had a long talk with my mom the other day and I mentioned on Nah that she totally sounded like that Wu-Tang Forever song “you cant fuck your life away, drink your life away, or your seeds will grow to be the same way”. I understand my mom but she doesnt understand me and the need for me to feel NEW or like I am stepping away from the 9to5 Matrix. My Dream has always been to own my own Restaurant/Club, it might happen might not. But I will try to ultimately accomplish it and if I do what is next, see what I mean it never ends. I write because people around me think I am funny or my storytelling is great. So my other thing is to possibly get a chance to write some comedy for a show or movies. Now that would be an accomplishment in and of itself. Well again good post and I still do some of the shit I did as a kid for the Nostalgia, i.e. Play Basketball, Wrestle with my young family members, Play with water guns in the summer, ride a skateboard. I feel the need to be in a healthy state of mind and all of these things ultimately do that for me. Cien!

  2. reythehussein Says:

    I know we have to grow up.. I just think there’s room for grown up stuff and stuff that keeps our hearts young, ya know?

    Good luck with your dreams, Fuxito. They can take away a lot of shit from us, but they can’t take away our dreams.


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  4. State of Grace Says:

    When I was a kid, I always wanted like 100 Foot Soldiers to accurately re-create the cartoons. I never achieved my dream. Thanks for bringing up painful memories Rey. Oh, and the quote is from the Gin Blossoms’ song Lost Horizons.

  5. Busta Cracka The English Smacka Says:

    Good post Rey-Rey….

    When i was younger i wanted to be He-man, that was my shit right there…

    I also wanted to be a music producer, Premo style, all the respect and cash and none of the limelight.. instead i’m 9 to 5 in a job i don’t like “shits disgusting B”

    PS. Hang-overs get worse as you get older FACT..

    Peace son.

  6. The XFacta Says:

    The only dream I have now is to see my son grow up into a man

  7. reythehussein Says:

    @ S of G– Yeah, my sis-in-law told me it was from that song. It figures ol’ Ashlee Crawford would quote the Gin Blossoms. 100 foot soldiers would’ve been sweet. I must have TMNT on the brain [||] because I wanted to use Usagi Yojimbo in the verse I put up in the last post, but I couldn’t think of anything that rhymed with it. Anyway, dredging up sad childhood memories is just one of the many benefits you get as a member of the It Ain’t That Serious Army.

    @ Busta– I like the He-Man theme song.. Not the big BABABA BA DUM! part, but the sweet little break down. Don’t knock the 9-5 hustle, that’s where the best daydreams happen! My condolences on the hangover, tho’.

    @ XFacta– Yep, I imagine that when I have kids that’ll change my focus from my dreams to theirs. Props for being a good father in a crazy world, X.

    Thanks to all for checking the post out!

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  9. OnPoint Says:

    Damn thanks for fucking up my mood (jk)

    I am so stuck in dreams that it almost doesnt make sense, but I also accumulated bills so I followed the career path. Luckily I have a lot of energy so I been spending alot of time on what I really want to do in the hopes that they pop off in the future i.e. like fux’s comment. Plus the money from the career helps with turning my serious hobbies into careers.

    I think having kids is what changes most people and understandably so. I have 3 friends that are pregnant or just had a kid this year, and now its like “come to my babyshower, its about family now.” Im not ready for that but if it came I would probably halt my dreams too, at least 70% of the energy going into them.

    Seems like you gotta conform and sacrifice some of your feelings/fantasy or this crazy world will eat you alive, or you’ll just check out on your own.

    One of my boys had this statement we go back to alot. Some fucked up shit had happened to him and he says with a pensive look on his face
    “Life man…….”

  10. superjew Says:

    deep shit. but um what channel was this reasonable doubt documentary on and whats it called i gotta see that ish. also what wrong with prison break? lincoln burrows is gully. but i see what you mean. im 25 and still have no clue what i wanna do with the rest of my life and i def dont wanna settle for some “it gets me by type shit”. illy post my nunzio.

  11. reythehussein Says:

    The Reasonable Doubt doc was on Vh1. They had Jay at a board with Premo, Ski, and Sauce explaning tracks, they had Jaz and Foxy check in.. It was thorough. Jay broke down some of the lyrics and everything. It was official tho’. “Classic Albums: Reasonable Doubt”, it was called.

    Prison Break never appealed to me.. They break out, the run, they’re back in.. No thanks. Not knocking it necessarily, but not for me.

    I feel you [||] on the “it gets me by” part. Me either, homey.

    Thanks for checking in.

  12. reythehussein Says:

    Cosign OnPoint.. I guess I just have more stuff to figure out.

    I appreciate you taking the time to give some real feedback.

  13. EnglandRepresent Says:

    EnglandRepresent’s hopes and dreams in a nutshell :

    Currently doin a good job payin good money but don’t enjoy it and am certainly not enthused by it. On the other hand its taken me to the other side of the world to a place where I would never have gone/lived. I have simple dreams, I wanna do something where I can actually help to contribute something positive to someone’s life. I wanna be able to help people more than anything else. Currently I’m stuck in the corporate world helpin the rich get richer. Fuck that. I’ve thought about politics but too many wankers in it. I think for me, its next stop Africa or South America.

  14. EnglandRepresent Says:

    Oh and my other dream is to smash the front doors in of this AMAZING girl who I’m taking out tonight. Smashing bristols and I imagine a nice smooth hairless, tidy little tight clunge.

    Pray for me.

  15. ReyTheHussein Says:

    *prays for EngRep* lol, All noble goals, my friend. Good journey!

  16. thoreauly77 Says:

    everyday a dream gets slightly more attainable; in this sense, every day is a a small miraculous dream. you see, these dreams are attainable, it is just that they occur over time in increments, and they are never accidental. the notion of serendipity is an interesting one: if i am walking down the street and i happen to look down precisely when a one-hundred dollar bill is floating by, seize it and place it in my wallet, the simple fact of the matter is i took all of those steps that led me precisely to that place, thus rendering the “fortunate accident” theory baseless and instead establishing every previous action leading up to it as perfect timing. still though, of all the steps, the first one is of most importance.

    may you find the step that feels the best… and take it.

  17. Busta Cracka The English Smacka Says:

    Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. It’s not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others. (c) Cruz

  18. reythehussein Says:

    Wow..Amen, Busta. Kudos to Thor.

    Thanks guys.

  19. Big Homie Says:

    Damn Rey you went all out on this one. Good post my dude.

  20. reythehussein Says:

    Humble thanks, sir.

  21. green eyes Says:

    hey rey.. great post.. i think this is a common feelimg in most of our generation. we arent happy where we are, but we need to do better at figuring out where we want to be. NOT HERE isnt a good answer. its tough to hold on to your dreams and hopes as life pulls you in a million directions, and its harder still to remain inspired and optimistic when you daily struggle not to drown in cynicism and disillusionment. i applaad those who can.

  22. reythehussein Says:

    Yep, me too.

    You know what I think it is? I think we’re all just sorta waiting for something big to happen. Granted, 9/11 was huge, but it got spun into such a bullshit festival that no lessons were learned.

    I think we’re all waiting for the apocalypse, a nuclear holocaust, aliens to invade, or a horrific war……and so we’re all just kinda dragging our feet.

    Of course, it’s dang nigh 5am and I’m exhausted, so who knows?

    Thank you for commenting, Greenita.

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